Some of you may have noticed that I’ve been off the radar for a few weeks, and for that I apologise. This is a post that I’ve been thinking about for half that time, but somehow I couldn’t bring myself to write it yet. Without being overly dramatic, these past weeks have been possibly the toughest of our lives, and it’s been hard to function on a basic level other than ‘go to work, come home, eat, sleep’ on a continuous loop. So thanks for anyone that’s stuck with me, I’m really grateful to you all.
So here goes:
On December 5th, we lost Lola, our 7 month old Dalmatian puppy. It was completely unexpected, she died suddenly on a Tuesday morning. She was running around in the park with my boyfriend when she collapsed and died almost instantly. We think it was something heart or brain related, but we decided we didn’t want an autopsy. Our hearts are broken.
We buried her ashes on December 31st, alongside Felix’s family pets in his parent’s garden. It has a lovely view and lots of open spaces – she always liked going to visit them and we took her on long walks out in the countryside. It felt like the right place for her.
This isn’t the post I was planning to write about our fur baby. I was planning on writing a post called ‘A Pup’s First Christmas’ in early December, talking about all the lovely things we had planned for Lola over the festive period. I was going to talk about all the presents we’d bought for her, how she was coming to spend the holidays with our families, and how spoilt she was going to be on her first Christmas Day. Now, I’m writing this instead, almost a month later, and it still breaks my heart.
I know most of my readers so far are my friends and family, so most of you will know this already. Thank you for all the love and thoughts you’ve been sending our way – it’s meant a lot to us. I just felt I needed to write something, and it feels kind of cathartic to put this all out there.
Rest well our beautiful pupper, we miss you every day.